( Not sexy) Hey everyone so my estrogen levels are too high apparently. I'm really worried and just had a big cry about it. I had my appointment in January and they increased my estradiol dose, been taking 8mg a day total since then and then today I get this letter. This was the metabolic test they did in January so they increased my estradiol when I already had high estrogen. So I've been taking even more since then for 2 months and that's why I'm so worried. I left a message and the center opens on Monday and I can schedule a appointment. I still owe the lab company 453 dollars from my last tests its about 180 dollars each time. And I have to pay planned parenthood 120 each time I go. My meds I get for free thankfully. Getting this figured out asap. Just thought I'd share if any one wants to donate and help me with this upcoming bill/help with the last ones let me know. Having a rough day now but gonna make a pizza and chill the fuck out. I hate crying but atleast I have the excuse of my hormones are literally a bit too high.
Don't wanna work today at the shop :( I should be at home exercising, being productive, working on music/art and riding dildos like a good little slut. π’ Lol
Thinking about how much I love being a sub. That feeling of when someone's hand is on your neck is so exhilarating and euphoric. The biggest sign of trust and vulnerability. Same goes for getting slapped and punished for me atleast lol. The action of pleasing someone you have feelings for and knowing your giving them pleasure, just enchanting. Sub space is intense and such a escape. Sometimes I catch myself falling into it out of nowhere just thinking about "naughty things". I assume it's just as amazing to be the Dom and have someone wrapped around your finger that is literally down to be your fuck doll and would probably do anything for you. Consent Communication and trust! Okay I'm done rambling lol